Felt like she was living in a region of drought
Here thirst was not of rainfall
But the love once she asked for
Same old rainfall !
All that she asked for,was rainfall of love
Had she expressed the pain she went through
Even the ice berg would be forced to melt.

She waited, waited for a long.

And then he came one day
She was happy and sad at the same time
As she knew there have been a deadline of their meeting !
She was looking into his eyes
He was nervous trying not to look at her
Not to show how much he loved her
Not to show how badly he wanted to lean on her lap and rest for sometime
Not to show her pain that tore him equally
Short of time and millions of things to ask
Both were silent and then,
That moment ,every small fragment of her was dissolved in him
Moment it was !
So much of love
So much of wait
Same were they
As they earlier used to stay
Met rarely
But still so incomplete without each other
Clock stuck..and everything was placed as before
So much to say
But not a single combination of alphabets could be framed
It was just the girl and a boy deeply in love and something immortal in between
With every passing seconds,there was completeness in the air
That blush,those water filled eyes said everything that even a word would have failed to convey
That void was filling (for a moment)
She went through an extraordinary feeling that day,he still tried to hide his side
And then he realized, he still loves her !

                             

She was melancholy cheerful. She lived every single second of her life. She laughed, she fought, she often argued. She showed that she cared and sometimes she showed she is still small child who still need to be cared upon. She was patient. She was brave. She was brave  enough to let people go she ever loved. She was the heart of many. She was the light of the house. She was  daddy's girl.

She was the girl who carried two sides in her life.

One side , where she smiles, she laughs and other side she pretends, pretends to be happy, pretends to be satisfied with what she has. She is the girl I always thought off. So pure, so true, so patient. To live in this cunning world, it was a tough task for how  I saw that girl. The world befools the pure one. And she was pure hearted. A girl to whom someone can rely on. Her beautiful hair which falls right across her eyes and the way she kept untangling them showed the child in her. Her hazel eyes spoke everything she failed to convey . It's not that she was deprived of words, rather she chose to be silent. Her lips wanted to chase every word which she wanted to speak. But all her trial went in vain. Her hands which she keep on twisting showed how painful it was for her to live so fake. She was afraid to tell anybody how she actually felt, she buried every segment of her  feeling deep inside where it only destroyed her. What she learned was to give and spread happiness .She never expected anything in return. She mixed very easily with people .But I think dark in the night when she found herself alone, when she found time for herself, she would rain and when the pain is washed out, she would be plain. There was stillness in her life somewhere, stillness where even the gentle flutter of butterfly's wings feel like a hurricane. She often listened to the songs with the words she was afraid to say. She could relate every lyrics of song. She laughs when she recalls something and she even cry at times  recalling all the beautiful reminiscence. She was lost in her own world where she nurtures every single day in search of something  she wished for, something she needed, someone she loved and someone who could walk  with her forever .Forever means forever. With every smile she carries and with every word she speaks, she handles  herself so beautifully that nobody can ever imagine what  pain she  go  through deep inside. She was complicated to study. She was mysterious. She was like a closed book. Too much suspense, too much mystery, too much pain, too much love and too much fear. She never let anybody to enter into the world she lived in, the real her ! which was very different from  the world she lived in and what she presented to people . She was the princess of her own world where she don't have to manipulate her feelings, where she is what she wanted to be. The place where she can laugh when she really feel like, place where she can cry her heart loud when  in pain, place where she can love someone with all her heart without any fear. Far from the real cunning world she kept her  feelings safe in her creation.

 I find this girl in great pain. Using a word like great is really awkward. I wish I can go in her world and see what she went from. What made her so out from herself. What made her to hide so much inside her.

-Shruti

For him, her sadness was like sun, beautiful from distance but it hurt too much to come closer.For her what left was insomniac nights, hopes and reality !

Yes, she was badly bruised, broken

With thousand of words hovering in her mind

A sense of  darkness invading her  inside

A feeling that she kept hidden deep inside

Running away from the truth of life

Though was very familiar with the nature's truth

She always made her home full of lies

And  battle to cope with truth

Pretending to live with vanity

 For her clock stuck and so does she

Living the reminiscence everyday was what she did

She, wearing masquerade walks with the crowd

Yes, she smiles, walks and talk as she always did

But something was in her mind that always keeps her abide !!

A  very  happy, prosperous and safe Deepawali  :)

^{Picture courtesy-Google}

^{Love is the bond linking the two individuals who share ionic bond to be stable and become unstable when any external atom (lies) comes in between. Slow poison as a Digoxin (Angel of death). Nagging to death. And then the storm runs out rain. Patience conked out. Hatred persists. Hatred, a very underrated feeling.}

^{P.S- Hatred is blind as well as love.}

Dark  in night when everyone sleeps

I find my feelings awakening with a beep

With night becoming dark

And my feelings growing stauncher.

Every reminiscence flash across my eyes

With the shriveled views from the book of my chronicle

Which I skim every day and night

With the limpid view of the days of laughter that we once shared

With all the unblemished views ,safe in my heart with care

All those reminiscences were mystifying at time

For once who was the reason for my smile was now the reason for my cries.

Unforeseen  Amendment !!

Days changed and so does the night

The days of love and the night of fights

The talk we share and the feeling of care

The time we enjoy and the time full of joy

The late night calls and the early morning joys

Waking up with hazy eyes

With the happiness to meet you again makes me feel bright.

Seeing you in the midst of the classroom and giving you a smile

The fight I go through with my words

And the shy telling everything that my words fail to verbalize

All it seems to be like a beautiful dream ,I never want to awake from

Like a princess I ride through all these thoughts. 

Turning left and right

Remembering your  words not to cry

Smiling , Crying and then again a try ,

a try to smile .

And recollecting all my efforts not to let the droplet of tears to fall

Insane completely with your thoughts

For the love I have for you

Has no limits, no boundaries throughout

Happy being in the past memory show again

Everyday, every hour, every minute and every second.

Now the clock stuck at 3

Yawning and then smiling stupidly

Keeping all my pains deep inside

Hopes keeping me alive all the way

Tossed over, turned off the lights

closed eyes to an awake mind

And regaining all my courage to live without you

By covering every pain with the mask I carry

living corpse with the fake smile

and I dissolve in the crowd again.

scarred mind !!

Ready for the next day

or the next Sleepless Night !!!

P.S- Some feelings never fade. No matter how distant we go,no matter how complicated the life is.