She was melancholy cheerful. She lived every single second of her life. She laughed, she fought, she often argued. She showed that she cared and sometimes she showed she is still small child who still need to be cared upon. She was patient. She was brave. She was brave enough to let people go she ever loved. She was the heart of many. She was the light of the house. She was daddy's girl.
She was
the girl who carried two sides in her life.
One
side , where she smiles, she laughs and other side she pretends, pretends to be
happy, pretends to be satisfied with what she has. She is the girl I always
thought off. So pure, so true, so patient. To live in this cunning world, it was
a tough task for how I saw that girl.
The world befools the pure one. And she was pure hearted. A girl to whom
someone can rely on. Her beautiful hair which falls right across her eyes and
the way she kept untangling them showed the child in her. Her hazel eyes spoke
everything she failed to convey . It's not that she was deprived of words,
rather she chose to be silent. Her lips wanted to chase every word which she
wanted to speak. But all her trial went in vain. Her hands which she keep on
twisting showed how painful it was for her to live so fake. She was afraid to
tell anybody how she actually felt, she buried every segment of her feeling deep inside where it only destroyed
her. What she learned was to give and spread happiness .She never expected
anything in return. She mixed very easily with people .But I think dark in the
night when she found herself alone, when she found time for herself, she would
rain and when the pain is washed out, she would be plain. There was stillness
in her life somewhere, stillness where even the gentle flutter of butterfly's
wings feel like a hurricane. She often listened to the songs with the words she
was afraid to say. She could relate every lyrics of song. She laughs when she
recalls something and she even cry at times
recalling all the beautiful reminiscence. She was lost in her own world
where she nurtures every single day in search of something she wished for, something she needed, someone
she loved and someone who could walk
with her forever .Forever means forever. With every smile she carries
and with every word she speaks, she handles
herself so beautifully that nobody can ever imagine what pain she
go through deep inside. She was
complicated to study. She was mysterious. She was like a closed book. Too much
suspense, too much mystery, too much pain, too much love and too much fear. She
never let anybody to enter into the world she lived in, the real her ! which was
very different from the world she lived
in and what she presented to people . She was the princess of her own world
where she don't have to manipulate her feelings, where she is what she wanted
to be. The place where she can laugh when she really feel like, place where she
can cry her heart loud when in pain,
place where she can love someone with all her heart without any fear. Far from
the real cunning world she kept her
feelings safe in her creation.
I find this girl in great pain. Using a word
like great is really awkward. I wish I can go in her world and see what she
went from. What made her so out from herself. What made her to hide so much
inside her.
-Shruti
